Every darkened crevice
Every hidden place
Every secret that’s inside of me
Though I run from You
I don’t get very far
In my weakness You speak tenderly
You heal this heart of stone
I am not my own
I am Yours…
How can I resist a perfect love like this
It’s like sunshine and the smell of spring
When I’m covered in Your forgiveness
God, it’s overwhelming
You have called me out of shadows
Out of darkness into light
Hemmed in by the hands of mercy
I’m completely satisfied
-bethany dillon
this song is filling our home right now.
i was headed to the kitchen as i sang
"You heal this heart of stone
I am not my own
I am Yours…"
God healed my heart of stone.
there was a time in my life, not very long ago at all- that i wanted to walk away.
my heart was hardening everyday...
i had no strength to pray anything but "but God defend me, and defend my marriage."
that was what i prayed a hundred times a day-
as i fought darkness, lies, and unforgiveness (mine, against myself and anyone who had ever hurt me)
i loved God, and longed to be a part of his kingdom, but the enemy tormented me with death and unforgiveness.
God alone was my defense.
God alone began to heal my heart of stone.
walking through our home today, with all of the decorations, and little vignettes of last nights party, my heart rejoices in a way that is hard to explain.
i was ready to trade the light, God's promises, and plan for our family- for a lie.
"Every darkened crevice
Every hidden place
Every secret that’s inside of me
Though I run from You
I don’t get very far."
"You have called me out of shadows
Out of darkness into light
Hemmed in by the hands of mercy
I’m completely satisfied ."
i'm writing this to say, that our desire, my and brandon's, is that our home, our lives, our business, our hearts would be a light in the darkness... a place of refuge, a place of hope, and a place of truth.
it was more wonderful than i could say to have our home filled with people, with hearts, families, mamas, daddy's, friends, and sweet children- the laughter, dancing, conversation, hugs, smiles, art, joy... it was LIFE to my soul- and a beautiful picture of redemption-
it is a picture of what happens when God defends you- i am so filled with wonder in this moment.
i don't want to ever forget it.
Psalm 35
A psalm of David.
1 O Lord, oppose those who oppose me.
Fight those who fight against me.
2 Put on your armor, and take up your shield.
Prepare for battle, and come to my aid.
3 Lift up your spear and javelin
against those who pursue me.
Let me hear you say,
“I will give you victory!”